Midlife Musings
Fortysomething. If my life were a TV show, that would be the title, and these are the episodes. Or maybe I am just having an episode.
Everything they don't put in the brochure for your 40s. Work situations that make your blood boil, body changes nobody prepared you for, pop culture opinions held with unreasonable conviction, and the general absurdity of being a grown woman who still hasn't figured out what she wants to be when she grows up. Honest, unfiltered, and occasionally petty in ways that are entirely justified.Why I’m Missing Out – Stuck on the Edge of the Dating Pool
Six years divorced and I panic at the chance of a gas station meet cute. I want to get back in the dating pool. I just can't let go of the edge.
Treading Water in a Pool of Misery – Abandoned by a Stranger
A coworker I barely knew took a transfer and I fell apart. That's when I started wondering if divorce PTSD is actually a thing and whether I have it.
Reality Dreaming: Sparking the Fires of Motivation Under My Ass
I dreamed my ex showed up unannounced and I woke up in a panic. Marie Kondo couldn't motivate me. The threat of him seeing my house? That did it.
Fever Dream – Ghosts from My Past and Watching Bandersnatch
I have a weird quirk where sometimes the more popular something is, the more I resist jumping on the bandwagon. Some latent habit left over from my rebellious youth? A remnant of anti-establishment feelings that never really disappeared, perhaps?
Conformity Destroys – the YOYO effect
Forget yolo. It should be yoyo: you're only young once. A short, dread-tinged musing on conformity, adulting, and the decrepitude of the mentally boring.
