Deep Thoughts: What If I Made It Worse?
One time when we were living in Virginia, I bought a stranger a bus ticket. I don’t know what possessed me, and to this day I wonder if I actually helped that person? You’re supposed to wonder about the small things other people do for you that you can never pay back. But what if instead we wonder about the things we do for other people that we never hear about again?
Premonition – The Movie I Forgot to Remember
Watching movies with my mother is annoying. Watching a movie with her where there is a husband and kids in the plot is even more so. When she was still here, I made the mistake of watching the movie Premonition with her. I, unfortunately, did not remember enough of the plot from the time I had seen before to realize it was a landmine of issues. That is how I found myself in that situation. Oh, also, spoilers ahead if you haven’t watched the movie, so whatever.
Photographic Memory
There is a black & white photograph of me that has persisted in my memory for decades. Let me tell you about it.
Music Roulette 3 ~ 120 Minutes
I set the shuffle loose again, and this round of Music Roulette resurfaced some deep, deep memories. An even more uncurated playlist than the first round or the second. I read somewhere that music and smells are tied to memories in the brain. That hearing one or smelling something specific will trigger the recall. They say the same thing about trauma, in particular about PTSD. That you’re not recalling the trauma, but instead your body is reliving it. Music can elicit strong emotional responses, too. Let’s see which way this one goes.
Verbal Hostage Situation
A toxic brother resurfaces with no apology, a verdict on my life, and an hour-long monologue. Verbal hostage situations, no negotiation possible.
