Black Widow Baby – Movie that Make You Go Hmm

Went to see a movie today that had me thinking about things in my personal life, long after the movie was over. I saw the movie Widows with Viola Davis & Liam Neeson. I was not prepared.

Warning – Plot spoilers below, proceed with caution.

In this case, Widows, the Steve McQueen Movie which came out like two months ago. Because it had left all the major cinemas it was now available at this bargain theater.

For those of you that don’t know, some cities have 1st run theaters that play all the new releases, more like mega cineplexes with 10 or more theaters. And then there are the second run locations that show movies that are not new releases, and may even already be streaming online, or available on DVD. These second run theaters can also be marketed as bargain cinemas with cheaper tickets.

Movies that make you go hmm 🤔

Some movies trigger emotions during the movie. Sometimes a movie hits me after I have left the theater. I was thinking about Widows, for way after the movie ended. I was thinking about it for almost a whole evening afterwards.

I am glad I went into the movie long enough after the release to have forgotten most of the hype in advertising. I may not have seen it if I had known what I was getting myself into.

I was really hoping that the direction the plot took wasn’t going to make me hate this movie because I had really been enjoying it to that point.

I have been burned by Gillian Flynn before. I couldn’t finish her book Gone Girl, I had to put it down because it was pissing me off. I was definitely not going to sit through the movie version of it either. I had forgotten for a brief moment that she was involved in this movie (she co-wrote the screenplay). But when we got to this crossroads in the movie, it all came flooding back.

Luckily, Veronica made the right choice. And I was not disappointed. BUT! I did not anticipate why I would like the choice she made, nor my reaction in the parking lot as I was preparing to drive home.

Movie plotlines that trigger feelings from my own situation

I saw the movie with my sons. As we climbed into the vehicle I started going off about the choice that she made and how I was so glad she shot him. But why?

Luckily, I caught myself before I went off too half-cocked in the car acting like a lunatic. My sons don’t need to see their mother going off the rails like that.

As I decompressed on the drive home, I thought more about why I was so triggered.

If I could write my life like a movie

I wished that I had been able to wrap up the shit that went down between me and the ex the same way Veronica handled her business. Decisively and with finality.

It’s coming on the 6 year anniversary of my divorce and I had fooled myself into thinking that I wasn’t bothered about it anymore. Apparently, everything that happened in that movie is my trigger. And 6 years is not enough time to have worked through it all. I am going to need more time.

So yeah. It was a good movie. Better ending than I expected. Good job McQueen. This could have been a train wreck. I would have watched it, but I would have wanted to look away all the same. So glad I didn’t have to.