Blogging for Sanity…

So I can’t afford therapy. No surprise there. That is what happens as a newly-single-mom-on-a-budget! I can’t keep these feelings/thoughts bottled up inside… next best thing to having a therapist, I have decided, is getting all this stuff out via my blog.

I want someone to benefit from the horrors that I had to go through. Maybe I’ll even get some useful feedback, which I don’t sometimes think I got with my last therapist I had. She was nice, listened attentively, but I wondered what she really thought about my situation? Sometimes I wondered if she was patronizing me with her seeming agreement and sycophantic responses to my laments. Sometimes I wonder if I am the only one who sees the world the way I do?

Does anyone feel this way? Take my ex, for example. He thinks he is perfectly justified to have committed adultery, that there is nothing wrong with “falling in love” with another woman at the same time doing nothing to actively leave the marriage that he is currently in, to include pretending that he is still a loyal and faithful husband doing nothing wrong. Why am I the only one who thinks that what he did was despicable? And that he is total scum? Why do his associates think nothing of it?

So basically, this blog is how I am going to let every feeling I have out in the only healthy cathartic way I have available to me that will not cost me money, or friends.