Navigating Uncharted Waters…

My new apartment is a brave new world. It dawned on me, as I sat in my most recent Craigslist acquisition, that I am really doing it! I am making my apartment my home.  It helps that my belongings, which until recently had been in storage in New Jersey, are inbound, thereby bringing closure to my move West.

It’s official, I now have NOTHING left that ties me to that black hole (aka NJ).

It is hard feeling really settled without my stuff. It’s not much. What I didn’t give to mr horrible, and I didn’t keep, I either sold to finance my westward journey, or I donated.  I have never cried more than I did when I had to sift through the remnants of the life I used to have. The feelings evoked as I had to decide what was going to make it into my new post-divorce life, and what had to be eliminated like chaff in the field, were powerful. I have never felt so defeated, and like such a loser, sitting there in the basement of the rental house that brought me nothing but misery, surrounded by piles of keep, sell and donate. I don’t wish that experience on anyone, except for mr horrible. Sorry son of a bitch avoided the process. Left me to deal with EVERYTHING all by myself, unforgivable.  Payback was that by not being present, he forfeited the right to choose what he got to keep. He’s lucky he got anything at all.

What few items made the cut and are en route to Texas, I am looking forward to utilizing to make my apartment a home.  mr horrible tainted the majority of the furniture in the main living spaces by having his bitch over my house when I was away with the kids visiting old friends in Virginia. I wanted to set it all on fire, had that not been prohibitively dangerous and illegal (unlike VA where I could have set fire to it all in my backyard provided it was not during the burn ban season) Which brings me to my recent Craigslist finds and how I chose them.

It had been a long time since I had lived alone, so I did some research. I got ideas from the internet, and I read some books from the library on apartment decor and design. Pinterest is a fantastic resource for organizing my ideas. I am enjoying the process. With every piece that slides into place, I step further into my independence, laying claim to my new adulthood. It’s a proud moment of my new history.