Woman on the Verge of a Nervous Breakdown

It is only two weeks before my husband returns from six months in Kuwait. I am not ready for my life at home with my three children to be thrown into complete chaos by his return, no matter how much I miss him.

His return is something I have to bend my mind around, and acclimate myself to! It’s like I have to deprogram myself from being all alone, to being once again, part of a team. It’s difficult. Made more difficult by the guilt I feel because I am not more excited, and the impending sense of doom keeps me from being anticipating good times. I hope I can make it.

There’s entire sessions and programs for military members returning home, but there is not enough focus on the other half, the people who stayed home and got used to them being gone. Someone needs to talk about that. How sometimes, we just are not excited because we know the bad times are coming. Especially if we’ve done it before.

In this case, it’s either sink or swim. And seeing as how there has already been enough turmoil in my life, I prefer to not sink this time around!