I’ve got the pre-holiday blues…

What to do? I am generally overwhelmed and completely unmotivated for this holiday season. Maybe it was the two days of gray and rain, maybe it’s the stress of moving and unpacking, but I definitely have the pre-holiday blues!

I make it worse, of course, by watching HGTV. Episodes displaying the best tips for decorating for the holidays, all of which showcase homes tastefully, or even tragically, decorated for Christmas. I can’t deal with this.

Every entry way, every dining room, every glittering tablescape I see has me wishing for better furnishing, or that this house had a better layout, or that I was just unpacked already with enough clear surfaces to put up a decoration or two! So aggravated!!

I don’t even have my Christmas shopping done. I can’t even wrap my mind around giving gifts, much less affording them. This move has just knocked me over sideways more than any of the last eight moves ever have. It’s crazy.

Maybe it isn’t just me? My children don’t seem to be particularly concerned with the lack of holiday decorations. I worry that I am going to ruin the holiday for them. I have to do SOMETHING.

My husband, is mostly no help. I can only assume that the joy of his new job keeps him too mentally occupied to think on it. When he comes home the most useful thing he can think to contribute is setting up his computer so he can play video games.

Unfortunately, the bulk of the decision making regarding everything else is left to me.

Sometimes I wish I had someone else to make the decisions for me, especially on days when I don’t think I am going to make any useful decisions about anything AT ALL, like today.

I am sure there are all kinds of suggestions or fixes to my current predicament, but I can’t think of any. So instead I am killing a few moments registering my disgust (regarding my lack of motivation and borderline depressive state) on the internet.

I know one thing I am NOT going to do: spend any more masochistic minutes watching HGTV programs that are just going to make me feel more inadequate about the condition of my home.