Mind Your Business

I am actively making a point to not fixate on a man. I know that is a phrase I’d never thought I would see myself writing. But considering my history, it tracks. Fixating on a man who ticks off all the “weird vibes” box is totally on brand.

I don’t even know why I am curious about this individual. But I end up seeing him a lot now because he also happens to be the son of a friend of mine, and in typical Guatemalan fashion, multigenerational living is a thing, so the more time I spend at her house, the more I see him. That’s not the weird part. The weird part is that he reminds me of the guy I had a crush on when I was in 7th grade.

What does he do for a living? I don’t know. But he rides a bike to work. That is weird, in a country where motorcycles probably outnumber people, riding a bike to work is certainly a choice. He has a camera on the top of his helmet. That’s weird. What does he do with the video? Who is it for? I don’t know, and I am curious.

I feel bad invading their space, but my friend seems to enjoy my company. To the point that she invited me over to her house again tonight after we got done handing out flyers to the next assembly in the neighborhood. I should have declined and gone home. Then I wouldn’t have seen him wandering about in his pajamas. I can’t recall the last time I’ve seen a man in his pajamas who wasn’t a relative of mine. Feels strangely intimate.

She invited me to have a bite to eat and a beer. As he puttered around making late-night eggs in his kitchen. I tried to play it cool. Not stare, or behave bizarrely. It was a challenge. My awkwardness in these kinds of situations can get me in trouble. Or cause me to do things that I later regret as I overthink my life away.

I know practically nothing of him, but the random pieces that come up in conversation as she describes her life. It is a weird situation to be in.

I didn’t come here for this complication. Not to mention that this is all in my head because no evidence validates this fascination as anything other than one-sided. Therefore…

I need to mind my own business.