2020 – Hindsight and the New Year
2009: unhappy marriage, SAHM, church choir. 2019: divorced, dream job, five cats, paying my own bills. Feels like I am doing better. Room for improvement, but that's ok.
Merry Christmas to Me – the Gift of Peace
I didn't invite my mother and brother for Christmas this year. My mother tried everything to get invited. I woke up at noon and felt nothing but peace. Merry Christmas to me.
Strong Enough – Not Just Lyrics to Another Song
A coworker told me she wished she was as strong as me. I spent the rest of the day wondering what she was actually seeing, because it isn't what I see when I look in the mirror.
Treading Water in a Pool of Misery – Abandoned by a Stranger
A coworker I barely knew took a transfer and I fell apart. That's when I started wondering if divorce PTSD is actually a thing and whether I have it.
Fever Dream – Ghosts from My Past and Watching Bandersnatch
I have a weird quirk where sometimes the more popular something is, the more I resist jumping on the bandwagon. Some latent habit left over from my rebellious youth? A remnant of anti-establishment feelings that never really disappeared, perhaps?
